Writing Life AND MY FEELINGS!!!! DISCUSSED AT LENGTH. READY????
Well. I have a book. Called MAKING FRIENDS WITH ALICE DYSON (in case I hadn’t already said that enough times on this blog. Ha!). And it’s coming out next month. On the 1st of March 2019, which is actually super soon if you hadn’t noticed.
I am equal parts jelly terror and elation, and am basically see-sawing back and forth between these rather extreme emotions.
Everything is going well though.
The book is ready and I’m super proud of it. I think it looks beautiful and I think my publishers have done such a gorgeous job on it, it really makes my heart happy. I am so excited to share the story, but nervous too. But I’m trying to clamp down on those negative terror emotions too, because I feel like it's pretty normal to be scared when you are bringing something so personal out into the world. I mean, it’s fiction right, I just totally made it up, it’s definitely not a memoir at all, but at the same time... it is my fiction. It is a story I care about and am proud of. It’s a story I wrote because I felt like it, and because it’s the kind of sweet love story I really want to read for myself.
I heard a thing on the (absolutely excellent) The First Time Podcast (which is about publishing a book and is BRILLIANT) and there an author said (and I TOTALLY can’t remember exactly what she said so here is a rather rephrased version of her very intelligent words which I am sure I have mangled!):
Your heart is published along with your book.
So yup. I guess that’s how I feel at the moment. A little bit.
Maybe a little bit vulnerable.
I just really hope people like it.
But you know, I am also aware that not everyone will. I read books all the time that are just not for me, not to my tastes, not my kind of stories. It’s just the way it goes.
And I always felt like I had really thick skin after all my long experiences trying to get published all these years, but I think you need a different type of thick skin for this part of the journey. And I think I’m still learning about what that is.
But I reckon I will be okay.
All of it is a wonderful and good thing.
And things that scare you are usually worth the effort of being brave and throwing yourself in.
So I guess that’s what I’m planning on doing.
I already discovered (via THIS waffly long post) what it is that I want out of this whole process, and that was essentially to feel proud of myself.
And if I try my best then I will be.
No matter what happens during this very last month of being an unpublished author.
And no matter what happens next month, when my book is unleashed upon the unsuspecting world.
So my actual Writing Life!
Like I mentioned waaay above, I feel at my most happy when I have a project at my fingertips and am making progress on it.
Right now my progress is super slow on my current WIP. I know technically there is absolutely nothing wrong with this because I AM VERY BUSY, but like I say, writing new things is what brings me happiness, so it is a little bit of a struggle to see this story taking shape so very slowly, but I keep pushing on when I have a spare half an hour and little by little the thing is taking shape.
I’m just over 20,000 words in right now, so I am happy with that. Absolutely no idea what I’m writing about though of course. Or if it is insane or not.
But apparently that is my process. Apparently that is normal.
So there you go.
Stuff I'm into Lately that Helps Distract me from the Terrifying Truth that I will soon have a Book Published!!!
So over the last month I’ve really become obsessed with dramas. Actually I am always kind of obsessed with dramas, they are actually my favourite thing in the world, and I don’t want the book community to come at me with pitchforks or anything because books are inside my heart, but dramas... sigh. Dramas are my one true love. After star Wars, I mean. And after my husband, obviously. He is actually at the top of that pyramid.
So lately, to make me happy and distracted, I have been easing my mind with the following fun dramas:
Soooooo..... that was a long waffle right?
I truly apologise if you are not into Kdrama and are wondering what the hell you just read.
But also what even is a personal blog if you can't spend time waffling on about all the stuff you like?
I read the Queen of Air and Darkness by Cassandra Clare recently (and it is a MASSIVE BRICK) so because of that MASSIVE BRICK (which was a very enjoyable brick) I only read four books in January overall, even though I was on holidays for a week.
And now I wrote so much drama waffle above that I am feeling tired and will just list what I wrote to keep this quick:
So... been reading anything lately you enjoyed? Any recommendations?
Please share it with me!!!